November 29, 2010
Sheri said “ you should take a look at Fairfax, I think you’d like it” and she was right…
A beautiful hippie but not so hippie town. A place surrounded by so much beauty…magic forests, tons of fun hikes, gorgeous beaches (cold but beautiful! ), sweet, warm, progressive people….
While searching for a place to live, I drove through the town and felt in love with it… so green! and the weather, much nicer than San Francisco…
I visited many potential places to rent. It wasn’t until I turn right into Arroyo Ave. in San Anselmo that my intuition said “ you are about to meet your new home”.I knew it at that moment… no doubt.
A beautiful wooden cabin up the hill, away from cars, from traffic and noise… with a back yard that looked like the ones in the movies… with a sweet fireplace! and my roommates…hum….my roommates…I was just about to discover how lucky/blessed I am…
Carla, a single mom of 2 talented, gorgeous teenagers. A very special art teacher for the Waldrof School. A brilliant artist, an excellent baker and cook, a sweet and funny woman…Oh! and she is Libra, just like Susy, my best friend.
Marte, her oldest daughter (15), she is a Taurus like me. Super organized, skilled, with a great sense of humor and a incredible smile. Very beautiful inside out.
Bente, the youngest in the house (13). A shy SUPER talented artist, musician and excellent student. A little hard to get to know, she protects herself with a shell of indifference…but I can see and sense she is full of love.
As of today, after living with them for 6 months, I feel very blessed to have them as my roommates. we not only share the kitchen but also our thoughts, our emotions, our rough spots, our home made almond milk, cookies and hummus…
Every time there is a guy sniffing around and trying to get to my heart, they examine and look at him carefully…like moms do…. 😉 then, say things here and there for me to open my eyes….very cute! This shows me how much they care about me. They want the best for me, that is.
Sometimes, when I get home tired from work and I start getting ready for a bath, Carla offers essential oils for me to enjoy.
When something hurts or bother me, they listen and always support me and try to help.
When I feel sad or sick, the comfort me. When I’m excited, they celebrate with me.
I feel love for them and loved by them.
Of course, there are things that are not clear cut perfect but when I see through the veil, I only see love. In general, they are very sweet with words but there are times where they forget about the importance, the effects of them and the energy they create with them…but hey! isn’t this world of duality? we are all learning. That’s a fact.
I say it once more, I feel immensely blessed by their warm presence in my life. I feel blessed to wake up in the morning surrounded by Bay and Oak Trees, by squirrels and birds, by the piano songs Bente play early morning sometimes, by wooden high ceilings… I feel blessed by the peace and growth this place and these people brings…I’m grateful for the fireplace that’s in my room and the firewood that burns and keeps me warm as I write these lines. Thank you mother, thank you trees, thank you to the element of fire….within and around.
I have boxes coming from Hawaii…I have boxes coming from Miami…
everything is coming together and everything is coming apart.
Getting to know the family
Meet Little Man
Meet 6 toed Moon
Rachel sent him to me on an airplane! From Hawaii! … Thanks Rachel! He was full of fleas, thin and scared…. but so happy to see me, so friendly with the neighbor cats and so curious about this new environment! I got him flea-free, showered and all handsome… he loves his new home.
Scared from racoons, coyotes .. surprised and curious about deers. He climbs high in the highest tree. It was all new for him this kind of nature.
Gifts of love & notes from my roommates
Home sweet home
Creatures in my garden
December 7th, 2010
The Beauty and uniqueness of my neighborhood
One of my favorite things to do back in Hawaii was to take long walks around my neighborhood; letting the surroundings speak and show me its beauty. It took me a while and some specific purpose to get into it again. The purpose today was to hand out my Christmas flyers. Flyers to promote my Massage practice.
I got dressed really warm and started the journey. I had no intention to take photographs but things just started to show themselves and I couldn’t help it. Luckily I had a tiny little camera in my purse. (for emergencies only, ya know) and so I captured a tiny bit of my experience.
I went door to door and handed out about 100 flyers while listening to an inspiring audio book by the so wise Pema Chodron.
Last night, I discovered a painful little lump in my right breast. I panic for a bit but then re-directed my mind to a positive outlook. I didn’t want to give any extra energy to something that might be nothing. I went to bed in peace.
Today, the panic comes and go. Many things come to mind. Am I making the most out of this life? Am I living everyday like my last…with passion, with curiosity, with love… Am I caught up into too much drama/illusion?
It was like seeing a little movie of my life… It was helpful so that I can revise those things that needed to be revised but so exhausting at the same time… My mind would go off like a wild squirrel! What about if is something serious? Would I want to do anything about it or just let it take its course? I don’t think I would ever allow any treatment. I would probably agree to removal of things but no chemicals in my body for sure… Phew! So many stories my mind starts to create….and I cry….I’m so scared…and I don’t know why….scared to what? I’m not scared to death. I’m probably more scared to get to the bottom of things and see how I sometimes waste my precious time in ego dramas. I’m scared of being stuck in the illusion. In the “I” rather than the “OM”.
I cry because I feel lonely. And it is not that I have no friends & family that show me they care… It’s a deeper loneliness. It’s a separation. Even though my efforts and my openness to connect to Source is there, I feel the separation and I feel the union might finally come…and I’m so scared to the unknown.
Meditation is where I refuge myself right now. Quieting my mind. Too many stories. Oh! Spirit give me the clarity, give me the strength to live in truth, to see through the tough veil of my so stubborn ego. Kali, Kali, Kali…I call your name … please come and embrace me and stripped away this ego…. enough to be able to function in this world, this planet, this lifetime with a somewhat clear vision of what’s really important right here, right now.
Last day in San Anselmo, Cafe Gratitude
in Gratitude for this family