January 24, 2011
Sunset at Stinson Beach
an unforgettable drive through the woods, a romantic sunset.
A trip to California was scheduled before I came into his life. So auspicious, so meant to be. He came, visit, made it stronger, packed my stuff and set myself ready for the next step. My roommates loved him and saw what I saw.
Moving back home to Hawaii with him. Trusting – Surrendering….
ORR HOT SPRINGS
HIKING IN SAN ANSELMO
& HAVING FUN IN SAN FRANCISCO
Feb. 18, 2011
Four more days and I’ll be back home…
Packing, selling, re-inventing, closing chapters and opening others have been the theme lately.
The process is Intense but exciting
though it feels like accelerated times because there is so much happening every day for both of us… it also feels like an eternity being away from each other..
Contraction and expansion…isn’t everything that way?
I’ll call it : Perfect pace and rhythm
All this preparation, all this time away from Daniel, from the Aina…
All of it… it’s just what it’s meant to be
Being patient, focus, determined, dedicated, committed, clear. It’s like a pregnancy and we are giving birth to this beauty together.
Giving birth everyday…nourishing “us”.. saying yes! to each other… saying yes to closeness, deep intimacy and sharing with each other, to life together, to sharing the passion in our hearts and bodies with each other, to adventure together, to honesty and transparency, patience and compassion for each other…we are saying yes to LOVE, to unconditional LOVE for the world and for each other… we are saying yes! to always stand in clarity and creativity in every way, at all times so that we can see our individual passions, desires and individual yearnings manifest and yet find the perfect balance and place to do so together. We are as well, saying yes! to creativity so that we may continue to kindle the fire, nurture the earth, renew and refresh the air, and be a witness of the divine flow of water of this relationship, OUR relationship… We are ready to more goodness than we ever experience, imagined, manifested or express before.
This is my affirmation!
It is the most divine feeling when we can consciously, from the heart, both of us share this, be open to this and choose each other constantly, every day.
My body is yearning his warmth. My body is yearning Home, Daniel and Hawaii .. that is.
Even Negrito is ready to go!
Today, I sit by the fire. It’s been 5 days of intense cold, rainy weather…I haven’t seen the sun in a long time… It almost seems like a reassurance that this not a place for a Sunny Ma like me..:)
I’m shedding one more time. Mother of Darkness, Mother of light guide us to our hearts… All that fall shall rise again… all that die, shall be reborn.
Hawaii, my precious home, I’m ready to surrender to your beauty. Earth my body, Water my blood, Air my breath and Fire my Spirit.
I want to be acknowledge in life for being courageous and in touch with my heart. I want to be acknowledge for living full and fearlessly. I want to be acknowledge for being Love and following my truth whatever that is at any giving moment.