July 6th – 12th, 2015
First few days of our Road Trip. We started in Kauai.
I was so afraid to visit this island again. Last time I was in Kauai, 4 years ago, was when I found out my brother had died. It was very traumatic.. and still is.
I could feel the tension every time we passed by the place I was when I received the news. I was able to transform this tension a few times until I couldn’t anymore. Daniel drove into the parking lot.. and my body started doing involuntary movements and I went right on the core of the trauma… it was hard.. again. I was re-living the intensity.. yet I could tell my mind “this is not happening right now — that happened, yes, and it was awful.. yet it’s not happening right now.. ”
After some intense anxiety, some tears and some talking, I was able to come out of it..
Chuy, I miss you. I wish you would not have left your body the way you did. I love you and I wish I could reverse this tragic event. My life has changed dramatically since you left. I’m not the same.. and not in a good way. Part of me left with you and even though I’m strong and I’m here and I love life..and I live in gratitude every day of my life, I will never be the same. I cope in my grief.. deep inside. I am aware. I love you hermano.. I feel for you, for your pain, for your desperation, for your loneliness. I don’t know why I created this experience in my life.. This wound would not heal. It is a permanent wound.
Kauai was fun even though.. . Sunsets were magnificent. Playing with light, movement, my camera and Daniel was fun. We drank cocos, ate good food and bathe in the gorgeous ocean. We stayed at a motel with tourists that spoke other languages, kayaked on the river and found a gorgeous private spot to roll around with waves. It was a magic spot.. ocean and river coming together..
We took care of some business with the galleries and we had some fun…
My sweet, handsome man
Kayaking down the river
Found the perfect little spot, a tiny beach with great waves and a little cold river flowing into it.What an unforgettable joyful experience this was. Perfect weather and gorgeous view of the Napali Coast. A highlight of the trip for sure. Yum!
ARTIST EVENT AT MARTIN AND MAC ARTHUR – Las Vegas baby!
Check it out!! This theater of life is meant to be played out..
Next stop – The Grand Canyon
Hiking down into the valley